Emotional

My little vacation here in Maine is quickly coming to an end.  While I love it here, and cherish every moment I have to spend with my grandparents, I am really looking forward to coming back home.  

This vacation has been good for me.  Like I have said in previous post, I have a lot of changes going on in my life.  I am moving back home, and starting a new job.  I am leaving so many memories and friends back in Charleston.  I have been a bit emotional about this change only because of the fact I am leaving Charleston and my friends.  Even though I have been struggling with my emotions, I am still at peace with the decision to move away.  I know that God has opened the doors for me in this job He has provided.  

While thinking of flying back home on Tuesday, I can't help but feel as if I am going home to Charleston.  Instead, I am going back and packing all of my stuff to move out of Charleston.  It is hard for me to imagine being back in Hartsville and staying.  I am used to going for a few days and then heading back to the Holy City.  Hartsville is always going to have a piece of my heart, but over the past 3 years, Charleston has been my "home." 

My sister now lives in DC,  my brother will be a senior in high school this next year then heading to college,  and my parents will be moving due to my Dad's job within the next year.  It is so strange for me to think that all of my family is moving away from Hartsville and I am moving back.  My parent's have lived there for 22 years and that it all I have ever known.  My parents having to relocate makes me want to cry but is also a blessing.  There are so many people who have been laid off and not able to find work.  I almost feel selfish for being upset that they are having to move.  Instead of feeling upset, I should be grateful he still has a job.  It is something that I have been struggling with and very hard for me to come to terms with.

As I have said, I could not be more happy, blessed, excited, and ready to start my new adventure; but it would be a complete lie for me to say that I am not scared, sad, and uncertain as well.

I find comfort in knowing God will never move away or leave me.  I know that no matter where I am, He is there right beside me leading the way.  Following Him may not always be easy, but I know that His path is the easiest path to follow.  I know that I will never be alone or lost as long as I stay on His path.