God, where are you when I need you most?

Where are you, God? I need you. Why have you left me? Do you ever find yourself asking those questions? Do you ever feel as though God must be hiding from you? God, where are you when I need you most? If you find yourself asking this question, im here to tell you that it's okay. When you finally get to the point to where you start questioning where God is; you start to realize when YOU LEFT God and started your life apart from Him. Let me tell you, that is a scary, scary road that you are about to embark. When I feel as though everything is right on track, you contanstly feel spiritually fed, and everything in your life seems to be falling into place; that is when I feel that God is walking right along side of me. Not ahead of me and not a few steps behind. Right beside me. How do you go from a spriritual mountain top to the deep, dark valleys? It does not happen abbrubtly. God is fighting for you until you make the choice to run ahead of Him and leave Him in the dust. You start dwelling on your own insecurities. You begin to tell yourself lies that you eventually start to believe. You start looking for something or someone else to fill that insecurity. That's when you start to run. Then you become so vulnerable that whatever it may be that is consuming you, you begin to see it as the finish line and you begin to sprint towards it. The next thing you know, God is no where to be found. The devil is going to find that crack. He is going to slip right in it when he feels that God has been left in the dust. You then get to the point where the sin controls you instead you being able to hand over the sin to God which he is already carrying for YOU. During your weakest moments, during your darkest times, in your most vulnerable state, that is when the devil will use his opportunity to attack. I want to tell you, there is a way out. God did not leave you. You left Him. God did not hide from you. You ran from Him until you were lost. Whatever it is that you may be going through or whatever it is that you may have done, nothing is too big for God to handle. Run back to Him, lay it at His feet, and ask for forgiveness and healing. God will never give us anything that we can not handle.(1 cor. 10:13) Lay it at the foot of the cross. And that my friend is when you begin to heal.