Writers block

Once again, I am having another case of writers block.  Generally when this happens, my life is normally in turmoil.  But honestly, I don't necessarily feel that it is.  Maybe I am in denial?  I will say that my faith walk has been struggling for the past several months.  I am still working on getting my life refocused on what I feel God is calling me to do.  I do know that things are turning around for me.  I have finally made some decisions that I feel is best for me for my future, for my faith walk and for my happiness.  I do finally feel like my life is falling more into place.  

The past couple of years have been difficult.  I have had ups and downs.  I have been disappointed with myself.  I have been angry with God.  I have been confused.  I have been lost.  But even through all of that, God has carried me through.  Being a Christian is not all roses.  It's hard at times.  But during these hard times, I ALWAYS have God to lean on.  

I'm not able to yet blog about what changes are coming up in my life, but soon I will.  I am more than excited to see what my future holds and what the next season of my life brings.  God is always faithful through everything that I go through.  He is always there to pick me up and carry me through.  

I serve such an amazing, awesome God!!!!!

Do You Want A Revolution?

This past weekend I had the opportunity to take 5 of my wonderful youth to Revolution 2012.  For the past three years, the SC Methodist conference has put on the Revolution retreat.  Revolution takes place in Columbia, SC at the Colonial Life Arena.  Thousands of students come together as one family in Christ to worship, learn and grow together in Christ.  This year, the theme was ONE.  The verse that we reflected on this weekend was from 1 Cor. 12:12 “12 Just as a body, though one, has many parts, but all its many parts form one body, so it is with Christ. 13 For we were all baptized by  one Spirit so as to form one body—whether Jews or Gentiles, slave or free—and we were all given the one Spirit to drink.”  There is only ONE God, ONE body, ONE spirit, and ONE Savior.  I got to witness hundreds of youth surrendering their lives to the Lord for the very first time as well as some rededicating their lives to the Lord.  Knowing that God captured so many students during this one weekend for me is so incredibly hard for me to put into words.  We serve a mighty God who can do anything.  That includes reaching the hearts of these teens who many believed had no hope in them to begin with.  Just hearing the stories from some of these students will break your heart into pieces.  Just when they thought they had no hope and no one to turn to, God showed up and consumed their entire being.   

One of the worship songs that we sang this weekend became one of my biggest prayers for me and for my youth.  The lyrics say: “Set a fire down in my soul that I can’t contain or I can’t control.  I want more of you God, I want more of you!”  I am here to say that a fire was set down in the souls of every single youth I had the opportunity to meet and talk with including every single youth from Wesley and there’s no putting that fire out!

I live to serve ONE God.  God sent His ONE son for our sins.  He paid the ONE sacrifice that had to be paid for us to live with Him for eternity.  The day I finally said, “Okay God I will surrender to my calling into ministry.  I am tired of running from it.”  That was the day that  God spoke to me through Jeremiah 20:11, “For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”  I realized then that there was only ONE plan for my life and that was to surrender everything that I have to Him and trust in Him. (Even if I do argue with him from time to time if I believe I should be doing what I am doing.)  Seeing these teenagers surrender their lives to the Lord reassures me that this is what God has called me to do and this is why I do what I do.  All the glory and honor goes to the awesome God that we serve!! 

My wonderful group! I love these guys and girls!